As much as I hate to say it I am having are hard time this week, I had a great family vacation and we did have so much fun, One night we were walking on the board walk and my friends little girl well she is 9 was walking with us and our 8 year old son. She came up too me and held my hand and walked with me for a bit I could not help but think WOW this is what it would be like to have my Kat with us, the four of us happy and laughing enjoying life.
Just for that few minutes I was complete and I felt good really good. I am lost with out my little girl missing her so much just to have her here to walk that board walk enjoying the summer breeze with us, I held back my tears and put on my happy face not wanting to bring everyone down. But I was really sad not having her with us, I know she is watching over us and we will all be a family one day,but I still get sad when I think of all the things we do as a family and wishing she could be with us, I know that you also think this way so please know your not alone and if you ever want to reach out to talk I will always be here to listen, Wishing everyone a happy summer and wonderful night. And I ask how was your day????

Candi XOXO

Do you have trouble asking others for help?? I know I do. I think I can do it all, Run,Run,Run.
I have a very hard time saying please help me. I am working on this. I also have a hard time saying NO. I spread myself thin and try to be in three places at once, I work late into the night and am up at 6:30 am every morning. I wish I could add a few hours to the day. So this week I am focusing on these items learning too slow down and that I don't need to say yes to everyone and everything. This will not happen over night but I can work on it and that is what matters, putting in the work is the only way. Just like everything else you have to work on it, it does not  just come to you and happen on it's own. I have my list and this is one of my goals. Rebuilding my life after Kat passed away was very hard and is still a work in progress. I still am working on it after 9 years I believe I will always have to work on it, But I can say that I am happy truly happy where my life is right now, I have a wonderful family and great understanding friends who love me, This is all Gods plan. I also get to help other who just like me are healing from the loss of a child, I think that is one of the greats gifts God has given me being able to help others and let them know there not alone is a joy to me and it also helps me heal. I never want another parent to think there alone because we are always here for them in any way we can.
I also want you to know that I will be taking a much needed family vacation for the next week, I will be checking my email so please feel free to email me when every you need to, I am always here for you.
Have a great week, and I ask how was your day????

With love,
Candi XOXOX

I wanted to stop by and let everyone know that B.W.W is for any parent who had lost a child at any age, We as parents feel are children at any age are our Babies I want all parents, grandparents, siblings or family friends too know they are welcome to our community, We welcome you with open arms and hearts, We will do everything we can to help you deal and heal from your loss, So if you know someone who can benefit from babieswithwings.com please tell them about us, We have a great staff ready to help. Thanks so much and God bless
And I ask how was your day???
Candi xoxo

 Dawn is my older sister
Kaitlin Rose is their  baby girl . Kaitlin Rose was born 10.20.99
She sadly didn't make, a few months later my Kat passed away this was a very hard time in our family, I know Kaitlin and Kat are best friends watching over us, a playing together in heaven, This poem was send to me By a nice man name Jim, I would like to dedicate this poems to Dawn and Jon
 We Miss you two little girls, and we think about you two all the time. God Blessed us with two Babies with wings.

How do I say Good Bye

When everything’s wrong in my eyes

When what’s happening shouldn’t be

When living is killing me

 

How can I say Good Bye

When I should be going first

When I’ll never understand why

Of all pain this is the worst

 

How can I say Good Bye

When I couldn’t say it face to face

Why would I say good bye

When I wish I could take his place

 

When you can’t let go

Can’t take it back

Won’t give in to the pain

But the road ahead seems black

 

My heart hasn’t beaten since then

My breathing is forced and strained

My life has been robbed from me

Myself I can’t stop to blame

 

I’m sorry God but “why” I’ll keep asking

Though you said I’ll not understand

Your Promise I must hold tight to

My Life and my Baby are in your Hands

 

I know God, you will unite us again

I believe this future to be true

And then till eternity and beyond

We’ll be together me my Baby and You

 

Good Bye needs not be said

That’s why it feels so wrong

So I’ll live from day to day

And say “See You Later” instead

 

My Tears will keep on falling

My Heart may never really beat

The emptiness will not be filled

Cause I miss my Baby so Sweet

 

But others also need me

And I too need them

Together we’ll all get through this

Till together we ALL are again.

Dawn I know how much you miss her and please know she is watching over you and the kids, remember I am always here if you need me.
And I ask how was your day?

Candi xoxo

If you have never been fishing PLEASE try it, what a wonderful time I had fishing. So at peace me and my pole the water, fresh air , great family,and friends, Get out and enjoy life forget about the sadness and heart ache even if it's  for a few hours, Please know I am always here if needed, And I ask how was your day???
with love Candi xoxo

Today is a new day, life is what you make it I really never got that until I started this journey, and I see this saying is so true, My life is what I make it no matter what is tossed my way. I can choose to fall apart or keep living a happy, healthy life. Life is what YOU make it. Think about that
Remember always here if needed.
And I ask how was your day???
Love Candi XOXO

It has been 5 years today that my step dad past away, this blog is for him, Dear Dave, I know we didn't always see eye to eye and I didn't tell you how much you mean to me, I never had a father growing up until you moved in and I know I was very hard on you, But please know that I loved you very much and miss and think about you all the time,I know one day I will see you again and I can make it right, Please keep Kat safe I know she was there when you arrived home, We love and miss you so much, You would be so proud of Kyla what a great kid she is growing up so fast and she really misses you, Mom is doing good, it has been hard on her but you know mom she doesn't show it. Please know that I did and still do Love you very much  until me meet again I love you Dad