Tonight I have to start this blog off with just the title of a song.. Love the way you lie... Can we be addicted to drama and pain.. can we love it as much as we hate it.. can we feed it.. make it worst then it has to be.. here is some of the song that I have been listening to all day..Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off of love, drunk from my hate,
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
"I'm leaving you"..

So you right now are asking your self what's wrong with me.... Well I have to say that I was raised in dysfunction.. To hate was to love.. that might sound crazy but it's what I knew...the yelling and hitting and fighting and the next day things are back to picture perfect. The happy brady bunch.... I know better now I know how love should be.. But it doesn't mean that I don't think that maybe I start the drama in my life. I feed off it....so how is it that one person can make you want to fight and scream, hit and yell and the next day love them to pieces...How do you stop it how do you fix it... if you take the time to listen to this song. I believe Eminem is also looking for the same answers. yes it might be a song but I can tell you this.. NOTHING we do in life doesn't have a truth behind it.. Ever I don't know, every just kidding, every I didn't mean it.. has truth behind it..... here is another part of this song that makes me think...Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
I told you this is my fault... maybe that's just it maybe we are a tornado and a volcano!!!!!!!! a mix that will never fit.... well I hope when you read this blog you really take this song to heart... if your in a relationship like this...... LEAVE IT!!!!!!! Walk away..

ending this blog tonight with a lot of unanswered questions.. but I will work them all out....

Be well with love, Candi

ON VACATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



Be well with love,Candi

song for the week... Taylor Swift~~~~ Teardrops on my Guitar. This has to be my favorite Taylor song ever.... it's the story of my life....

When you have something on your mind just say it....
If you miss someone tell them. Don't hide how you feel cause you never know when it's going to be the last time you have the chance to say it... I have learned this the hard way many times. Holding back and then never having a second chances to say how I feel. I will not let this happen again and my friends and family will tell you. If I miss you I tell you. If I love you I tell you. I always let you know what and how I am feeling. Life is to short not to say it. I always want those I love to know it. Just in case my tomorrow doesn't come they will know.....
With this said have a beautiful night.
Be well with love.Candi
and I ask how was your day and did you tell your loved ones that you love them or miss them today??? If not do so don't regret it you just never know what can happen....

Song for the night  Stevie B I wanna be the one...

thought for the night~~ sometimes it just has to hurt... sometimes we have to hurt.. We have to feel the pain.
p.s.I will always have those butterflies. that will never change.....

What is your passion??? What moves you???what is your favorite color??? what something you can't live with out????? My passion is giving back and to make others smile... being a light for someone who is in need. I have always been a fixer. If your broken I want to fix you.. I was told many times I can't save the world and yes I know this but what harm can it be to at least make the world a better place for someone..To do your part in making someone else happy.. make them smile.. That is my passion. What moves me???? MUSIC my music moves me I can be in a bad mood and all I have to do is throw on a great song and I smile.. Music for me is therapy. I just find it easier sometimes to say hey listen to this song it's everything I want to say with out having to say it.....HMMM what is something I can't live without great question but a hard one there are many things I need in my life.. first and foremost My Children I live for them... they are my world and I would do anything for them....Kat who made me the woman I am today.She is my Angel and my inspiration in everything I do and have done with my life.. And Romeo my hero. He is the reason I keep on keeping on.. The reason for me getting up everyday and try to be the best person I can be. He is truly my hero and my friend..I would never want a day with out them. I couldn't live without them...Also I can't live without my Mother.... I couldn't live without my Milkyway that is my addiction and one of the joy's in life..WELL I would be able to live without it. I just wouldn't want to.....My favorite color well two.. Aqua & and Black.. lmao This blog tonight was because I had someone email these questions and I thought it would make a great blog. So you guys would learn a little about me.. So I ask you to asks yourself these questions and you can feel free to email me the answers or leave them here.. Thanks and have a wonderful night..

And I ask how was your day???

Be well with love Candi..
Song for the night. Usher~ There goes my Baby...
here is my favorite part of this song..
I feel like it’s our first time
Every time we get together
Baby loving you feels better than
Everything, anything
Put on my heart you don’t need a ring
And I promise our time away won’t change my love


 

Have you every wanted to rewind time. Stop the world and start over....The things you would be able to change. The things you could redo.. All the life lessons you would never have to relive.. It's to bad we can't stop time we can't do it over once the day is over it's over....So live for today, Learn from yesterday....Don't wish you could just DO IT...."Make you happy cause in the end when you look back on everything you want to be able to say you where happy"..Thanks Mommy for sharing that info with me. For a long time I was always trying to make everyone else happy and all it did was make me unhappy. I was always last. I now am looking at life different.. If I'm not happy no one around me will be happy.... So start thinking about you and your needs. Time can be your friend in time people show there true colors. In time you see who your friends are and aren't. In time you see who loves you and if they love you for you... Being loved for just being me is amazing I can be my dorky, needy,DRAMA fulled ME.... It feels good to laugh and be myself....So I would like to Thank TIME. because with  time I was able to find me and who I am.. Over these many years, I was able to see what is important in life.. Who was important to me. and I think that is just a great gift. I think time is a gift. may it be time away from someone, I think you learn to appreciate them more, and what they add to your life. Time away sometimes can bond you closer to that person. You can come back fresh and have a better outlook on your relationship. Time is never stopping so start today, start living for today.....

Be well with love,Candi xoxo
and I ask how was your day???

Song for the night~ Cyndi Lauper. Time after time
Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
and think of you
caught up in circles confusion--
is nothing new
Flashback--warm nights--
almost left behind
suitcases of memories,
time after--

sometimes you picture me--
I'm walking too far ahead
you're calling to me, I can't hear
what you've said--
Then you say--go slow--
I fall behind--
the second hand unwinds

chorus:
if you're lost you can look--and you will find me
time after time
if you fall I will catch you--I'll be waiting
time after time

after my picture fades and darkness has
turned to gray
watching through windows--you're wondering
if I'm OK
secrets stolen from deep inside
the drum beats out of time--

chorus:
if you're lost...

you said go slow--
I fall behind
the second hand unwinds--

chorus:
if you're lost...
...time after time
time after time
time after time
time after time