12 years later I went to her stone today and cleaned it up placed her balloons and other items and one single red rose. I stood their cold again looking around at all the "new stone" that over the years have been placed all around Kat. These are all someone's babies, someone's dreams and hope wiped away in a moments time. little dates that too some mean just another day but to parents and family these dates are marked into their heads as painful memories of the days their life's changed.I stood their and this year I spoke to Kat. I usually wouldn't share this with anyone,but today I will. I told her thank you..Thank you for being my child thank you for letting me be your mommy. I asked her to please take care of all the little babies she is caring for. Let them know that we miss them and they are safe. I asked her to hug all the other ones who left earth way too soon, SAM and Lee<3 and to please keep keeping us safe. I thanked her for watching over Romeo an I reminder her that he didn't replace her that she will always be my first child and that not a day passes that I don't miss her and wish she could be here with us all.. I told her that I was proud of her, and that I hope she was just as proud of me. I read her this a poem I wrote called breathe. I sat their there on the cold ground just wishing she could be sitting with me. I know God needed a strong angel baby to run babieswithwings in heaven he needed a little girl to help all the other babies who come home too soon.. I was proud that God picked her. I am proud God picked me to be her Mother cause he knew I was going to be-able to be strong and turn all this pain into something so beautiful.. Broken into beautiful..... my wings might be torn but I can still fly high.. My 12 years of fixing this broken road haven't been easy but I don't think I would change this path. This is my path and I know I have to walk it. the good the bad and the ugly all have made me who I am today. I am blessed to be a beautiful broken mess. Kat has brought some amazing angel families into my life and heart, I wouldn't know these families without her. We wouldn't have reached those who needed a friend who gets it. I wouldn't be blogging this right now. We wouldn't have a BWW. So today I am not going to think about the pain, I am going to smile and thank God for picking me to be a angel Mother. Not everyone can say they held an angel in there arms so I am pretty luck you see.... remember you can take your negative and turn it into a positive, it's all up to you what you do with what God gives us... 

I will end this blog tonight with two things.

1. love life, love the people who are here today! Tomorrow isn't a promise to any of us, it's a gift

2. Dream big and go after what you want in life....

Be well with tons of love,

"Nobody"
(feat. Athena Cage)

[Keith]
I want to tease you
I want to please you 
I want to show you baby
That I need you

I want your body
'Till the very last drop
I want you to holler
When you want me to stop

And who can love you like me (nobody)
Who can sex you like me (nobody)
Who can treat you like me now, baby (nobody)
Nobody, baby (nobody)
And who can do it like me (nobody)
And who can give you what you need (nobody)
Who can do you all night long (nobody)
Nobody, baby (nobody)

[Athena]
I want the night
For me and you
So come here baby
And let me do it to you

Don't be afraid
'Cuz I won't bite
I promise to give it to you
Just the way you like

And who can love you like me (nobody)
Who can sex you like me (nobody)
Who can lay your body down (nobody)
Nobody, baby (nobody)
And who can treat you like me (nobody)
Who can give you what you need (nobody)
And who can do you all night long (nobody)
Nobody, baby (nobody)
And the band keeps playing on

[Both]
On, on, on, and on, on
On, on, on, and on, on
On, on, on, and on, on
Nobody, baby
On, on, on, and on, on
On, on, on, and on, on
On, on, on, and on, on
Nobody baby

I want you right now for my lover
Oh yes I do
Place no one above you 
Oh yes I do
If you need love
I'll be right
I'll be right there, baby
Oh yes I will
Oh yes I will baby
Oh yes I will baby

And who will love you like me (nobody)
Who can sex your body like me baby (nobody)
Who can do it like me, baby (nobody)
No, no, no (nobody)
Who can lay you down just like me (nobody)
Who can kiss you all over your body, baby (nobody)
[Ad lib till fade]