I believe this is the worst time of year for all of us, just knowing that someone is missing is the hardest. 1999 it still feels like yesterday, but soon it will be 10 years with holding Kat. I have been missing her so much this week. I just want her here with me. I still find my self angry at God for taking her home and not letting me be a Mother to her. I understand that this is my path in life but it doesn't mean it doesn't suck.  I know how hard the following weeks are going to be for me. I can remember 10 years ago this time of year having her in my belly kicking around how I miss that feeling .. Jan 4 will be Kats 10th birthday. wow 10 years with out. missing her I would give anything I mean anything just to hold her again. to listen to that little heart beat. Writing this blog tonight is very hard for me but I know I am not alone you are also feeling this pain. wondering why me why us why are kids........ I don't have the answers to that. I just know the pain. and yes the days can get easier but that pain will always be there.that never goes away we just learn to deal with it different. we hide it put a smile on and fake it. I have turned my pain and angry into something wonderful this site, Helping you has helped me in so many ways, Thank you for letting me help you and for your friendship, I would like to also say please try to have a Merry Christmas and a happy new years and remember if things feel like they are to much to handle asks for help. we are always here. God bless
with love,Candi
And I ask how was your day?????
Song for the night Avril : slipped away.
( Kat my little butterfly Mommy is missing you so much I love you and can't wait to hold you again.I love you baby girl..)