My four walls... I can remember ten years ago like it was yesterday looking at those white walls...as they felt like they were closing in on me.... Being so scared, being so alone.. Just wanting you to stay with me. words can't explain the pain I feel everyday not having you here with me.... Why did you have to go so soon I will never be able to answer all the questions... I have to believe it was for a reason God needed you for a reason. God needed my Baby for a reason... Know one will every understand my pain... The pain I hide with a smile. the jokes I make so I don't break down... making believe everything is fine.. My life is perfect... What a joke is that.... My life is far from perfect.. I am far from perfect... Everyday I am learning something new about myself do I like everything I see. No but I am working on fixing it... I want you to be proud of your mommy. Mommy is always praying for you.. Baby girl not a day goes by that I am not thinking about you and what it should have been.


Until we meet again(((((HUGS AND KISSES TO HEAVEN)))))