Tonight I have to start this blog off with just the title of a song.. Love the way you lie... Can we be addicted to drama and pain.. can we love it as much as we hate it.. can we feed it.. make it worst then it has to be.. here is some of the song that I have been listening to all day..Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off of love, drunk from my hate,
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
"I'm leaving you"..

So you right now are asking your self what's wrong with me.... Well I have to say that I was raised in dysfunction.. To hate was to love.. that might sound crazy but it's what I knew...the yelling and hitting and fighting and the next day things are back to picture perfect. The happy brady bunch.... I know better now I know how love should be.. But it doesn't mean that I don't think that maybe I start the drama in my life. I feed off it....so how is it that one person can make you want to fight and scream, hit and yell and the next day love them to pieces...How do you stop it how do you fix it... if you take the time to listen to this song. I believe Eminem is also looking for the same answers. yes it might be a song but I can tell you this.. NOTHING we do in life doesn't have a truth behind it.. Ever I don't know, every just kidding, every I didn't mean it.. has truth behind it..... here is another part of this song that makes me think...Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
I told you this is my fault... maybe that's just it maybe we are a tornado and a volcano!!!!!!!! a mix that will never fit.... well I hope when you read this blog you really take this song to heart... if your in a relationship like this...... LEAVE IT!!!!!!! Walk away..

ending this blog tonight with a lot of unanswered questions.. but I will work them all out....

Be well with love, Candi