Welcome to our Connecticut Chapter
Your Connecticut leader is Jennifer and this is a little about her and her angel.
you can contact her via email @ babieswithwingsct@yahoo.com...
My name is Jennifer. I am 34 years old and about to be married to my best friend. We have come through a lot over the past 2 years and it is from getting through all of this together we know we can make it. I have 3 angels and one soon to be beautiful step daughter. My oldest are my angel boys. They were twins which I lost at 16 and 17 weeks pregnant due to complications with my uterus. I was an emotional nightmare. I was told that I would never conceive again. My whole life I have always loved children and wanted to be a mom. Then in 2009. I found out that my fiancé and I were expecting. I was shocked and couldn't be happier. I knew it was going to be tough as I was very high risk due to my health issues, but I was willing to put the effort in to have my baby. I was glowing and happy and my life felt complete. I made it past the 17 week mark and was doing good. I learned we were having a boy and even got some very cute 4-D ultrasound pictures. We picked out his name and had his entire nursery set up. My whole family was excited. Then on September 9, I awoke to having a tummy ache. And just plain felt yucky. I had an appointment the day before and heard his heartbeat and saw him on the ultrasound we had just gotten and everything was going great. So it couldn't be related to the baby. I stayed in bed all day and rested until the cramps started. I called my doctor and they told me to get to the ER. I got there and let them know what was going on. I was so scared. The doctor came in and checked me out. They couldn't believe that I was dilating. So much that there was no way to stop it. The nurse held my hand the entire time and at 9:42pm Jeremy Joseph was born into this world. He was so tiny I couldn't believe it. He took a breath then no more. He passed just a minute after he came into this world. I held him for hours he was so small but yet so perfect in my eyes. I felt that my life had ended with his. As it was time for me to go home I cried so much and the depression was horrible. People told me they were there for me and the understood my pain. But my anger blocked all of them. No one knew how I felt. People were caring for the first few months. Christmas was the worst, or so I thought. Then came Jeremy's due date that was harder then Christmas. Then Easter, then mother's day. It seemed to get worse each holiday.
Then one day in early spring I was in the park where I used to go to sit to read to my belly. I saw the most beautiful butterfly flying around me. Almost trying to get my attention. I know this may sound strange but I swear as it flew by my head on one of its trips I heard the whisper "Mama" I knew at that second my Jeremy was there by my side. It was that same day I decided that I wanted to get my first tattoo. I got a butterfly in Jeremy's honor. It is not colored in yet. I am going to finish it soon.
I am getting married on June 18,2010 to my best friend. He has been there for me in my good times and bad times. He has a daughter who is 4 years old. She is my little princess. I love her and treat her as my own. She has been a huge help in me being able to keep going every day. I have learned so much through my experience and I want to be able to help others . I know the pain that comes with losing your baby. I hope that I will be able to help in some way. I am here to listen or offer support or help you find the support you are looking for.
My Husband is also here to help. If you need a father's opinion to help out let me know and my Husband would be happy to help you.
Hugs, and angels kisses,
Jennifer
If you would like to speak to Jennifer you can email her @ babieswithwingsct@yahoo.com
All donations will go back to help parents in your state.
you can contact her via email @ babieswithwingsct@yahoo.com...
My name is Jennifer. I am 34 years old and about to be married to my best friend. We have come through a lot over the past 2 years and it is from getting through all of this together we know we can make it. I have 3 angels and one soon to be beautiful step daughter. My oldest are my angel boys. They were twins which I lost at 16 and 17 weeks pregnant due to complications with my uterus. I was an emotional nightmare. I was told that I would never conceive again. My whole life I have always loved children and wanted to be a mom. Then in 2009. I found out that my fiancé and I were expecting. I was shocked and couldn't be happier. I knew it was going to be tough as I was very high risk due to my health issues, but I was willing to put the effort in to have my baby. I was glowing and happy and my life felt complete. I made it past the 17 week mark and was doing good. I learned we were having a boy and even got some very cute 4-D ultrasound pictures. We picked out his name and had his entire nursery set up. My whole family was excited. Then on September 9, I awoke to having a tummy ache. And just plain felt yucky. I had an appointment the day before and heard his heartbeat and saw him on the ultrasound we had just gotten and everything was going great. So it couldn't be related to the baby. I stayed in bed all day and rested until the cramps started. I called my doctor and they told me to get to the ER. I got there and let them know what was going on. I was so scared. The doctor came in and checked me out. They couldn't believe that I was dilating. So much that there was no way to stop it. The nurse held my hand the entire time and at 9:42pm Jeremy Joseph was born into this world. He was so tiny I couldn't believe it. He took a breath then no more. He passed just a minute after he came into this world. I held him for hours he was so small but yet so perfect in my eyes. I felt that my life had ended with his. As it was time for me to go home I cried so much and the depression was horrible. People told me they were there for me and the understood my pain. But my anger blocked all of them. No one knew how I felt. People were caring for the first few months. Christmas was the worst, or so I thought. Then came Jeremy's due date that was harder then Christmas. Then Easter, then mother's day. It seemed to get worse each holiday.
Then one day in early spring I was in the park where I used to go to sit to read to my belly. I saw the most beautiful butterfly flying around me. Almost trying to get my attention. I know this may sound strange but I swear as it flew by my head on one of its trips I heard the whisper "Mama" I knew at that second my Jeremy was there by my side. It was that same day I decided that I wanted to get my first tattoo. I got a butterfly in Jeremy's honor. It is not colored in yet. I am going to finish it soon.
I am getting married on June 18,2010 to my best friend. He has been there for me in my good times and bad times. He has a daughter who is 4 years old. She is my little princess. I love her and treat her as my own. She has been a huge help in me being able to keep going every day. I have learned so much through my experience and I want to be able to help others . I know the pain that comes with losing your baby. I hope that I will be able to help in some way. I am here to listen or offer support or help you find the support you are looking for.
My Husband is also here to help. If you need a father's opinion to help out let me know and my Husband would be happy to help you.
Hugs, and angels kisses,
Jennifer
If you would like to speak to Jennifer you can email her @ babieswithwingsct@yahoo.com
All donations will go back to help parents in your state.
