Louisiana Chapter leader
Welcome to our Louisiana chapter leaders page. This page is for our parents who live in La. and our looking for help. I would like to introduce Victoria and her journey with her son Chaston.
You can contact her @
babieswithwingsla@gmail.com
February of 2008. I was working at wendys. Doing my normal days taking orders, doing all kinds of fast food stuff. Then I see my ex boyfriend walk in with a nice looking guy! I was like O! lol Well when they finally got to me for me to take there order he turned to his friend and said this is the girl and Billie said Whats up nigga! I was like really? I live on my own in a trailor. We went back to my house that night and talked and talked we really enjoyed each other. It was amazing to be around someone so sweet! For the next year it was tough we didn’t think we could have made it! It was very hard! Then February of 2009 we broke up on the 25th. We thought it was the end! No more to Billie and Tori. I started working at lowes! WOW was that interesting! Started getting really sick just thought it was due to stress or something. Kind of brushed it off. Then Billie and I got back together On March 10th 2009 I took a pregnancy test the night we got together and Boy did GOD have other plans for our lives! We were so happy but scared all at once I mean we just got back together we didn’t want our baby having to share mommy and daddy we wanted to be together to be the perfect family! It went great and started getting better from there! Life was really amazing! We moved to Jena, and we better then ever. At 15 weeks we found out we were having a baby boy! Billie told me that from the beginning that we were going to be having a baby boy but me being the mom said NO it’s a girl. Guess who was right . Chaston Manuel Clark was going to be his name. First we picked Chase then went to Chaston and Manuel after my grandpa. Starting at 26 weeks I had to go to the doctor every week due to high blood pressure! It was so crazy I had to drive a hour once a week to do the same thing over and over and over again. The great thing about it though I get to see our little boy every time! It was so exciting.
We started working on Chastons room when I was around 5 months alone. Winnie the Pooh EVERYWHERE! I knew he would love it. Billie worked 3 weeks on and 3 weeks home. So most of the time I was by myself. Which wasn’t to bad! On November 17th I went into the doctor to have my normal checkup being that I was 41 weeks. He just didn’t want to come out he was very content where he was but mommy and daddy was very anxious to see his little face! I went in and Dr. Beiber checked me and told me that I still wasn’t dilated. He did a ultra sound and told me that I didn’t have any more fluid. I was scared I didn’t know what that meant. But Chaston still looked good. Told me to go to the hospital . I called Billie and told him He got straight off the rig and was there within 6 hours! We were both so much excited. My grandma was there with us. She was such a huge help. That night they put the dilator in me By 6 am the next morning still nothing. I was maybe a 2 So they did portico. Boy did that hurt! After around 12 hours in labor and STILL Nothing. They decided to do C section. At around 3 they did epidural and by 3 30 I was in the room. Billie squeezed my hand! How I cried! I was scared! I was scared I wouldn’t here a cry. At 3:36 I heard 15:36 which is in army time and a little cry! WOW I was relived I looked over at Billie and saw him crying! 7lbs 7ounces and 20 ½ inches long They handed him to billie and then let me kiss him on the forehead! Finally knew how amazing life was! Chaston was so beautiful! Blondie Hair blue eyes. Perfect in every way! That night I was asleep and so was billie on the couch beside the bed and Chaston was in his bassinet beside the hospital bed and I heard him chocking I jumped up not thinking I just had a c section didn’t think about it at the second. Through a coke bottle at billie and didn’t wake him up so I grabbed Chaston and thank GOD it was just him coughing!
The next day billie had to go back to work! Ugh how we hated it. I had Chaston Manuel all to my self My little angel! I called him that from day one! Life was amazing! No more worries! Just our little angel. Chaston was a little sick since the day he was born but every one said it was just from birth! I didn’t believe them. I took him to the doctor 6 times in 7 weeks. But his doctor did nothing. Well anyways. We stayed in the hospital for a week because he had jaundice. I would sneak him out of the incubator because it was in my room just to hold him I felt bad for him! He wasn’t getting to be held unless to eat! I just had to pick him up! Well we came home on a Saturday! Thank GOD we was finally home.
We had so much fun. He always slept with me in the bed except when daddy was home. At 7 o clock every night he had his bath then by 7 30 he ate then by 8 I rocked and rocked and sung to him then he finally fell asleep! I loved the nightly cuddles! When Chaston Manuel was 4 weeks old he rolled over and by 5 weeks was getting a tooth. He was such a big boy already! In December for Christmas daddy wasn’t home so we waited until January 5 when he got home We bought Chaston a teddy bear that sung and he would laugh. He loved that thing. Daddy would always get him to sleep by laying him to sleep on his chest and rubbing his little back he hated it when mommy did that. He loved his daddy so much. We had so many plans for Chaston Manuel to have a big house with a big yard and a big swing set and lots of toys! So many plans. One night Chastons play pin broke so we just started letting him sleep in the bed with us both! He liked it a lot better Well I think mommy did lol! Chaston was just sleeping through the night! The night of January 7th we layed Chaston down for bed and as soon as we got to bed our little angel poped those eyes open! So we played for a bit! I looked at billie and said this is our angel he want ever be taken from us hes ours to keep, billie said yes baby he is. Then on January 8th 2010 daddy woke up to check on chaston at 5:45 am and he wasn’t breathing he shook me and screamed and said call 911 I was in so much shock all I could do was ask why GOD why our baby! WHY WHY WHY! so we did We try to do CPR but didn’t know how! We didn’t want to hurt him even more. Cops got there and stood over Chaston and said nothing we can do. I remember so clearly there was so much blood from his tiny nose he was blue in the face above his left eye. But still so so warm. Like he was still here. I just sat there on the floor and stared at the floor I couldn’t move. Member faintly people walking in and out not to clearly. Then remember looking over at Chaston once more and breaking down again. His little yellow jump suit. His fist quenched together like always. Then the corner got there. He questioned us and was really rude. Then the next day the OCS came to question routine thing when child dies in home. Same thing with them. The next few days was a blur. Chastons funeral l was on the 11th . Don’t remember much from that day kind of out of it. We got Chastons autopsy report in and it said SIDS but also said Pulmonary Congestion and Pulmonary Edema. One day I will know the truth!
Chaston Manuel was our world and still is. He is with Jesus Christ now playing with all other angels. There is not a day that goes by that I long for the touch of my little angels hands again. The touch of his face against mine. Some days I hate everyone I just don’t want to talk to anyone! I don’t want kids around I just want my little angel back then there are days where I know where he is and it fine with me as long as we make it there! God said he will never put us through something we cant get through and I strongly believe that! I am the Louisiana Chapter leader but I am willing to do all it takes to make a difference in the world! With all other angel parents we will make it through this!
Matthew 19:14 Do not suffer little children to come into the kingdom for they are pure in heart!
You can contact her @
babieswithwingsla@gmail.com
February of 2008. I was working at wendys. Doing my normal days taking orders, doing all kinds of fast food stuff. Then I see my ex boyfriend walk in with a nice looking guy! I was like O! lol Well when they finally got to me for me to take there order he turned to his friend and said this is the girl and Billie said Whats up nigga! I was like really? I live on my own in a trailor. We went back to my house that night and talked and talked we really enjoyed each other. It was amazing to be around someone so sweet! For the next year it was tough we didn’t think we could have made it! It was very hard! Then February of 2009 we broke up on the 25th. We thought it was the end! No more to Billie and Tori. I started working at lowes! WOW was that interesting! Started getting really sick just thought it was due to stress or something. Kind of brushed it off. Then Billie and I got back together On March 10th 2009 I took a pregnancy test the night we got together and Boy did GOD have other plans for our lives! We were so happy but scared all at once I mean we just got back together we didn’t want our baby having to share mommy and daddy we wanted to be together to be the perfect family! It went great and started getting better from there! Life was really amazing! We moved to Jena, and we better then ever. At 15 weeks we found out we were having a baby boy! Billie told me that from the beginning that we were going to be having a baby boy but me being the mom said NO it’s a girl. Guess who was right . Chaston Manuel Clark was going to be his name. First we picked Chase then went to Chaston and Manuel after my grandpa. Starting at 26 weeks I had to go to the doctor every week due to high blood pressure! It was so crazy I had to drive a hour once a week to do the same thing over and over and over again. The great thing about it though I get to see our little boy every time! It was so exciting.
We started working on Chastons room when I was around 5 months alone. Winnie the Pooh EVERYWHERE! I knew he would love it. Billie worked 3 weeks on and 3 weeks home. So most of the time I was by myself. Which wasn’t to bad! On November 17th I went into the doctor to have my normal checkup being that I was 41 weeks. He just didn’t want to come out he was very content where he was but mommy and daddy was very anxious to see his little face! I went in and Dr. Beiber checked me and told me that I still wasn’t dilated. He did a ultra sound and told me that I didn’t have any more fluid. I was scared I didn’t know what that meant. But Chaston still looked good. Told me to go to the hospital . I called Billie and told him He got straight off the rig and was there within 6 hours! We were both so much excited. My grandma was there with us. She was such a huge help. That night they put the dilator in me By 6 am the next morning still nothing. I was maybe a 2 So they did portico. Boy did that hurt! After around 12 hours in labor and STILL Nothing. They decided to do C section. At around 3 they did epidural and by 3 30 I was in the room. Billie squeezed my hand! How I cried! I was scared! I was scared I wouldn’t here a cry. At 3:36 I heard 15:36 which is in army time and a little cry! WOW I was relived I looked over at Billie and saw him crying! 7lbs 7ounces and 20 ½ inches long They handed him to billie and then let me kiss him on the forehead! Finally knew how amazing life was! Chaston was so beautiful! Blondie Hair blue eyes. Perfect in every way! That night I was asleep and so was billie on the couch beside the bed and Chaston was in his bassinet beside the hospital bed and I heard him chocking I jumped up not thinking I just had a c section didn’t think about it at the second. Through a coke bottle at billie and didn’t wake him up so I grabbed Chaston and thank GOD it was just him coughing!
The next day billie had to go back to work! Ugh how we hated it. I had Chaston Manuel all to my self My little angel! I called him that from day one! Life was amazing! No more worries! Just our little angel. Chaston was a little sick since the day he was born but every one said it was just from birth! I didn’t believe them. I took him to the doctor 6 times in 7 weeks. But his doctor did nothing. Well anyways. We stayed in the hospital for a week because he had jaundice. I would sneak him out of the incubator because it was in my room just to hold him I felt bad for him! He wasn’t getting to be held unless to eat! I just had to pick him up! Well we came home on a Saturday! Thank GOD we was finally home.
We had so much fun. He always slept with me in the bed except when daddy was home. At 7 o clock every night he had his bath then by 7 30 he ate then by 8 I rocked and rocked and sung to him then he finally fell asleep! I loved the nightly cuddles! When Chaston Manuel was 4 weeks old he rolled over and by 5 weeks was getting a tooth. He was such a big boy already! In December for Christmas daddy wasn’t home so we waited until January 5 when he got home We bought Chaston a teddy bear that sung and he would laugh. He loved that thing. Daddy would always get him to sleep by laying him to sleep on his chest and rubbing his little back he hated it when mommy did that. He loved his daddy so much. We had so many plans for Chaston Manuel to have a big house with a big yard and a big swing set and lots of toys! So many plans. One night Chastons play pin broke so we just started letting him sleep in the bed with us both! He liked it a lot better Well I think mommy did lol! Chaston was just sleeping through the night! The night of January 7th we layed Chaston down for bed and as soon as we got to bed our little angel poped those eyes open! So we played for a bit! I looked at billie and said this is our angel he want ever be taken from us hes ours to keep, billie said yes baby he is. Then on January 8th 2010 daddy woke up to check on chaston at 5:45 am and he wasn’t breathing he shook me and screamed and said call 911 I was in so much shock all I could do was ask why GOD why our baby! WHY WHY WHY! so we did We try to do CPR but didn’t know how! We didn’t want to hurt him even more. Cops got there and stood over Chaston and said nothing we can do. I remember so clearly there was so much blood from his tiny nose he was blue in the face above his left eye. But still so so warm. Like he was still here. I just sat there on the floor and stared at the floor I couldn’t move. Member faintly people walking in and out not to clearly. Then remember looking over at Chaston once more and breaking down again. His little yellow jump suit. His fist quenched together like always. Then the corner got there. He questioned us and was really rude. Then the next day the OCS came to question routine thing when child dies in home. Same thing with them. The next few days was a blur. Chastons funeral l was on the 11th . Don’t remember much from that day kind of out of it. We got Chastons autopsy report in and it said SIDS but also said Pulmonary Congestion and Pulmonary Edema. One day I will know the truth!
Chaston Manuel was our world and still is. He is with Jesus Christ now playing with all other angels. There is not a day that goes by that I long for the touch of my little angels hands again. The touch of his face against mine. Some days I hate everyone I just don’t want to talk to anyone! I don’t want kids around I just want my little angel back then there are days where I know where he is and it fine with me as long as we make it there! God said he will never put us through something we cant get through and I strongly believe that! I am the Louisiana Chapter leader but I am willing to do all it takes to make a difference in the world! With all other angel parents we will make it through this!
Matthew 19:14 Do not suffer little children to come into the kingdom for they are pure in heart!
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